I hope I'm wrong!!!

Here is the conversation Clarabella and I had last night...but allow me to set the stage. She has been sleeping in her her own room for the past few months and things have been going GREAT!!! In the last two weeks she has begun to have issues though. She doesn't want to be alone, she comes up with all sorts of reasons to come out to talk to us about "stuff", and it's starting to affect her day at school. So I laid down with her last night and we talked about her day, how she was feeling, and why we're having problems now. She held my hand and said, "I think it would be a good idea if we had a bed that is big enough for all of us to sleep in." I laughed and said, "It probably would be nice, but I don't think they make beds that big." "But Mommy, I just can't stand to be alone and away from you." I sort of giggled again and said, "How funny. Right now you don't want to be away from me, but in just several years you won't want to be anywhere near me." My sweet beautiful girl actually got tears in her eyes and said, "That will never happen. That isn't nice to not want to be near your mommy." Oh how I wish that day never comes. How I hope that those moments are very few and don't last long. Clarabella has the most sincere heart and her feelings are quite deep and raw (for the lack of a better word) so I know she means what she says. I only pray that she remembers it when she gets older.

They survived the field trip!!!

Grandpa and Clara made it safely to and from the zoo yesterday and had a blast it seems. Clara said that they had another little boy with them as they walked around and it was "ok." What a wonderful way for grandpa to spend his retirement. He is getting the chance to make such a wonderful impact on these kiddos....just like his grandparents did for him. He has such wonderful memories of them and the things they did together. Now Clarabella and Jak have that same opportunity now because we live so close to each other. So after Clarabella and I debriefed after the zoo trip I asked her if there was anything special she wanted to do this weekend and she said, "Go to the zoo." "But you just went there today." I said. She responded, "But Jak wasn't there." Awwwwwww....my little girl loves her brother!

I LOVE her style!

Clarabella got ready on her own this morning and I love that she did. I adore the innocence that she lives with. She was telling us that one of her classmates was "mean" to her today. So I asked her, "What do you do when that happens." I wanted her to say something like, "I tell him that he better not do that to me ever again." But she didn't. She said, "I asked him again and this time I said please." Oh sweet girl....oh I just don't want her to hurt like I did. I don't want her to feel that hurt when people disappoint her. I vividly remember that hurt and there are times when it hurts to near paralysis. How do I help her build that strength? Pray...pray hard!